11/30/17 writing…

So much has happened in the last week that I don’t even know where to begin. Everything is good at our house, but since there is such a big gap, a week, so much information, plot line, fun and life have been lost. Today I decided to leave the Nook on each day an write some as I pass it. Maybe that will get me writing every day. So much every day life is happening at our house, and as the days unfold I write blog posts in my mind but don’t get to the Nook to write them down. I’m too tired in the morning and at night to write and too busy during the day. Can you tell how frustrated I am? When Maggie and I are watching a movie she is always playing Minecraft. She can do both at the same time. I can’t. Maybe its because she is brighter than me, or maybe its because I struggle with spelling and need to concentrate on my typing as I go along. I wish I had listened to my mom and teachers in grade school and learned how to spell and how to add and subtract too. It really has made life more of a challenge. OK, I am done whining now.

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11/24/17 working…

Maggie got a call for an interview at a pet store. We are so excited. She loves pets. She is really a scientist, but since she dropped out of college, she needs a job. She needs to get her interview outfit together. The store that she is interviewing at is the same one that our ferret was bought at.
Beth is going job hunting with me next week. She has been out of high school for a whole summer and hasn’t looked for a job for the weekdays yet. She had a job at a drive in on the weekends but she didn’t get many hours. She has a car and needs to set some money aside for repairs and hasn’t been able to do that.
William got laid off on Friday. They didn’t have enough work for him. He cleans machines in a factory. The machines are all clean. He had come to me about a month or two ago and said that he knew that he wouldn’t be there much longer. He said that at first the machines had been so dirty that he had really needed to work hard to clean them. But now he is re-cleaning clean machines. He could see that they wouldn’t need him long. That’s when we started to look tor a a school for him. He said that he wanted to do programming. It would get him off of his foot. He wasn’t upset that he had been let go. This wasn’t his dream job, but he had been happy that he could buy some candy or a two liter of Coke whenever he wanted to. Now he doesn’t have a job and he isn’t scheduled to go back to school. I asked if waited to go do the pretest at school. He said no. He wanted another job. I am so … not upset … I guess concerned… that he isn’t working. We looked for a job for him for so long before we found this one. Now he does have almost a year of working to put on his resume and he was laid off for lack of work. So maybe we can find something right away for him.
Now … all three kids that are looking for jobs. The temporary agency that William was through said that they would help him find something. They will look close to our house. He doesn’t want to drive, so he will need to be able to walk home from work.

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11/14/17 responsibilities…

When the kids were all out of high school I was so glad to be getting past one responsibility. A few years ago, I had kids in college and high school and kids dating, and getting jobs and getting cars and talking about moving out. It was a lot for me to keep track of. In high school, it is the students responsibility to get the work done, but the parents have to go to the conferences if there is a problem. So… I always felt responsible and spent a lot of time asking, do you have any projects that are due, any reports, anything that you need from me? I also needed go be ready to drive them to events at school and with their friends. We had added on so many new areas that needed watched over and hadn’t taken any away. I was in overload. When Beth graduated, so many of my responsibilities left.
When we were at church the weekend after graduation they were talking about the summer retreat for the high school kids. I started thinking, did I sign Beth up? Does she have that weekend free? Then I realized, she is out of high school and won’t be going to this event. I was so relieved. It is like when the kids were toddlers and I would see a diaper commercial and panic, when did I buy diapers last, should we go tonight, then I would realize that my kids were past diapers, and a whole wave of relief washed over me, like there is something going on in the world and I was not responsible for it.
The kids did handle their responsibilities, and there was a light at the end of the tunnel, the date for graduation had been set, so I knew that responsibility from all of the high school events would be over soon. That helped, the hope of a better tomorrow. When the kids were little I was in a share group at church, it really helped to hear each week what the other parents were in the middle of at their house. Now that the kids are older, they are handling their own responsibilities and it is so nice to be able to watch them grow as adults.
What do you do when you have too many things going on at the same time?

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11/9/17 writing and getting out of high school…

 I need to write more often. Maggie and I went for a walk in the woods, William and I met with the school counselor, Maggie and I went to a demonstration on carving arrowheads out of wood, the continuing saga of Beth’s Social Security card, the ferrets new hiding place for the cat food, the new clothes washer and the laundromat, the Minecraft update… …there is probably more but it is 11:12 at night and I am a morning person so this is all I can think of.
Beth has looked so happy since she got out of high school. Still young but standing up a little straighter after graduation. She looked like a weigh had been lifted off of her shoulders too. She worries a lot about things like I do. She can get an A minus on a test and worry about what it will do too her grades. She used to come home in grade school and say, mommy, I was so worried about my spelling test that we took in the morning that I couldn’t play at recess. She had known the words so well that she had them memorized by Wednesday of that week. We would then go over them on Friday morning and she would get an A. But she still worried. She still looked worried when she got home from school, knowing that she had passed. That is not to say that she got a lot of good grades, she really did know the work, but in kindergarten she was asked to be in the gifted group. Beth asked the other kids who were in it what it was like. They told her that it was different learning and puzzles and all that they did. She asked if it was after school, they said no that it was during free play time. So Beth decided that it was an extra class and refused to go. So all through school, Beth always threw away some of her work to keep her grades low so that she didn’t get put into the gifted program. Sometimes she threw away too many assignments and ended up in summer school. I told her to quit throwing her assignments away, she said no, and that she knew all of the work and shouldn’t have to go to summer school. She still had to go because her grades were so low. Now that she is out of high school, summer school is over.

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